My sister and I used to love this song very much. Both of us would always play this song whenever we were sweeping the floor. haha.. We took turn to sweep the floor but most of the times, I would do the most job..=.='
Anyway, we really love this song. We would sing this song together sometimes and she would play the guitar. I'm the worst brother ever, I was defeated by my younger sister in playing any music instrument. She can play the guitar very well, not just the guitar, the drum also! I would make noises whenever I played the drum. Pathetic brother...
The truth is, I would rather choose to be in that moment, the moment when we sang and spent time together, compare to my current situation. I realized that, I found peace and calmness whenever we spent time together. I feel guilty for not being the true biological brother that she deserved. She hurts a lot. She hurts a lot when she was a little kid. She doesn't deserved to be treated like that. Although all the family labelled her as the most stubborn child, I don't always put the blame on her. Everyone sees what is in front of them, not behind them.
The moment we spent together is the moment I saw an innocent cute pretty and lovely girl. She is not bad at all. She wants to be listened not to be condemned. Although in many cases people would point her, but I chose to not be their clan. I became her defender, although I didn't know who was the true culprit. I just want to show her that even 1000 people try to bring her down, I can be that 1 person that hold her and cling to her. She doesn't need to find someone else outside there.
Once again, I feel that I've failed to become the best brother. I failed to say that I love her, in fact I never try , not even once. Because I prefer to use actions to manifest my love. Hopefully she will realize, someday.
I guess this song will always be our favorite song. Lead Me To The Cross...(lead us to the cross Lord)
p/s: I think this is the most emotional post I ever wrote.
-Blessings-
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